Camp, women, and girls

WARNING: There may or may not be spoilers in this blog.

I’m guilty of spending hours on Youtube when I’m lonely. In those hours, I’m trying to get rid of that feeling. Only one thing does the trick, of course. GIRL ON GIRL SCENES.

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No. Not porno. What do I look like? A straight man? Obviously I mean movies like Kyss Mig/Kiss Me or Elena Undone. Clearly I mean shows like Faking it or Orphan Black or The L Word. You know I mean web-series like Starting From Now, Kiss Me I’m Famous, or recent explosion Carmilla. THOSE were the girl on girl scenes you thought of, right?

ANYWAY. Last night I stumbled across a trailer for a short movie called Camp Belvidere. The title basically tells you the location is at a camp. It’s like Dana and her not-named-because-famous counselor at Tennis Camp. Except, the camp isn’t specifically tennis, and it’s a counselor-nurse relationship.

The trailer already gave away that the story’s setting is… some time before these shorts

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were out of style so long that they’re now coming back into style… side note: why would you ever bring these shorts back into style?

I, of course, enjoyed the kissing in the trailer.. because I am like a 13 year old boy, as we established with my Pokemon blog… although the age may vary. However, I am wary about stories based on these older-woman-younger-woman relationships. Especially since Loving Annabelle and Bloomington were so BAD. I mean… a lot of people like the movies (which you can watch both on Hulu for free btdubs)… but I just can’t get into them. Why? 1) They’re super slow. 2) As a future professor, I cannot condone teacher-student relations.. no matter how hott a student might be. 3) Not enough sex, obviously.

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Back to Camp Belvidere. After reading some of the comments, I thought: “everyone keeps saying this movie is great, despite that it’s like 38 minutes long. It must be the best 38 minutes of their lives.”

I wanted to have the best 38 minutes of my life too.

So I went to Vimeo to rent the movie. I highly recommend you do the same. If you want more movies with Lesbian-centric story lines… well, you should support the directors and writers who make them, duh.

And…

it wasn’t THE best 38 minutes of my life.. but.. let’s just say.. I didn’t want the movie to be over. You’re already pulled into the primary story within minutes of the opening. Let’s also say that the pulling begins with lots of sexual tension.. and a little bit a canoodling.

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What also becomes clear is Nurse Gin is in a lot of pain from past experiences, and possibly.. hopefully.. the ethics of relations with someone who you have authority over. But… as is often portrayed in movies with a similar story, Rose is youthful and persistent because she hasn’t quite experienced the number of blows life deals you over time.

The major difference I learned between this movie and others like it is that Gin and Rose both work at the camp.. Gin isn’t exactly in a position of authority over Rose. So, I quickly got on the #Rosin ship (clever, right? I came up with that all by my lonesome).

Not only that.. but.. I hope Astrid Ovalles never sees this.. that woman is one the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen.. despite the silly nurse outfit she wore in the movie. I COMPLETELY understand why Rose went nuts.  I’m much more awkward than Rose. I wouldn’t even be able to look that woman in the eyes. If I had a nurse as pretty as Gin… I probably would’ve tried to find a new nurse.

DON’T JUDGE ME.

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Anyway.  It’s not just that first 6 minutes we need to talk about.. there’s also the use of the camera.  We get up close and personal with facial expressions the whole way through.  If there is ever a best way to express the emotions within a person, it’s to study their face.  That was the best decision by the director.  We even see the know-it-all, pass-judgement-on-you face of Ms. Turner, and the excited-she-spoke-about-me-there’s-hope-yet face of Bobby.  I don’t even need to mention the clear internal torment of Gin, and the sadness of Rose.

That was all the in-between stuff that you hopefully watched.  And.. the ending was perfect too.  Typically, a happily-ever-after ending always leaves me cynical.  For example, in Imagine Me and You, we know that Luce and and Rachel are finally together and probably finally have sexy times later that night.  But, I roll my eyes and remember that beginning a new relationship is not all the bliss movies try to sell.

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The other extreme is a lesbian movie trope for some reason: someone dies, or goes back to men, etc.  This doesn’t leave me cynical… it leaves me super depressed… like, wtf just happened?… for example, Piper Perabo’s other movie Lost and Delirious where Tori is trying to date boys again and, as a result, Paulie kills herself.

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Camp Belvidere did the most perfect thing ever.. and I’m not talking about Astrid Ovalles being forever engraved in our minds through our eyes… I’m talking about the very last scene where Rose and Gin are laying in bed after sexy times, and Rose basically asks “what now?” and Gin basically answers “I don’t know.”

YES.

They have just opened a new chapter, and they don’t know what comes next because it hasn’t been written yet.  It could be that happily-ever-after, although unlikely.. or it could be Hell on Earth.  They could stay together forever, or they could break up after camp is over.  NO ONE KNOWS.  THAT IS THE POINT.  The future is this big, dubious thing-a-ma-bob that you tackle.  Hopefully, #Rosin …. 😉 … tackles it together.

QUICK!  Someone make this into a fan video!

Watch Camp Belvidere.  Let me know what you thought about the movie.  Let me know if my blog led you to watch the movie.  Go rent it. NAO.

We NEED to ask Questions. We are REQUIRED to seek answers.

I sometimes volunteer.  The work involves talking to youth who seek help.  We’ve all been young before… we know that when we are children everything seems so much more serious.   We are all so much more dramatic.  Like Romeo and Juliet… they couldn’t be together in life.. so instead of just moving on and finding another to love they killed themselves.

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But what these youth are feeling.. it isn’t silly to them.. and some of it isn’t silly to us.  Some youth have experienced abuse, others have thoughts of killing themselves, and still others are dealing with unrequited love.  All of these things are equally serious, and they deserve attention.

Yesterday I talked to a girl about her sexuality.  AFTER I watched the season finale to MTV’s Faking It.  When I watched the show, I was irritated.  I thought:  just another show where lesbians again look like they go back to men like feelings for women aren’t real.

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However, I reflected how representation has been much better lately than in earlier media.  Then I talked to the young lady, and remembered that young people don’t know what they want out of life.  It’s okay for them to question whom they are attracted to, and as humans we are built to find answers to our questions.  The young lady needed my support.  She needed to hear that there is nothing wrong with the fact that she is questioning herself because of sudden feelings for the fairer sex.  She needed to hear that it is okay to take her time to figure it out.

Then I thought… why is it okay for people to say this to straight girls as if because she is coming over to the rainbow side it’s okay that she is figuring things out??  Why can’t Amy, who has declared herself gay for Karma, take the time to figure herself out as well?  Why is it that when a lesbian has sex with a guy she’s a traitor or automatically straight or considered so much of an abomination that Skittles doesn’t have a flavor for her?

Of course, we don’t know what sex with Liam means yet… but they both were quite clear about their feelings for Karma… so I predict regret and shame and awkwardness in Season 2.

But, my own initial reactions are representative of lots of people.  I’ve read some hateful comments about the finale on the internets.  Lesbians are bitter and angry about Amy’s drunken sex-capade with Liam.  Yet, there are some of us who tried to convince ourselves and others of straight-ness by having sex with guys or relationships with men.  It’s part of humanity to discover who we are.  To convince ourselves that we aren’t gay first, and then become okay with it.  It’s part of our journey to grow into who we are meant to be.  Why shouldn’t television, which sometimes aim to represent real life, display the same journey in life?

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I personally did not need the aid of other people to figure myself out.  Once I knew I was gay, that was that and I hid it as long as possible on my own.  But I have been involved with both straight girls and bisexual women.. the terminating result made me bitter for a long time so I understand where the stereotypes come from as well as the angry reaction from lesbians who cling to the stereotypes.

However… reflection tells me that humans will always question themselves (their sexuality, clothes, career choice, etc.), and we learn from a young age that we should find answers.  It’d be best to do so without hurting others, I think.  But some people need to leave a tornado in their wake.

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Some people need chaos in order to avoid it the next time.  And people who are dealing with feelings of homosexuality are the same as people who are dealing with feelings of heterosexuality who are the same as people who are dealing with feelings for both who are the same as people who are dealing with feelings for absolutely no one…

And a tornado is exactly what Amy and Liam have just created.  I don’t care that Karma is a unsavory person, and I don’t care how much she hurt Amy, and I don’t care how badly acted drunk Liam and Amy are.. you don’t claim you love someone and then do what they have done.  I’m not a fan of what happened in the season finale..  Amy can sex her feelings away with some other guy, not the one your best friend is in love with.  This makes Amy worse than Karma somehow… because while Karma was flaunting her feels for Liam in Amy’s face, Karma was also unaware of Amy’s feels for her.  Amy is completely aware of how Karma feels for Liam.

I shake my head at this despicable ending.  Not because Amy needs to reassert her heterosexuality after being hurt in her vulnerable homosexual skin… and not because Liam has fallen for a girl in a committed relationship… but because these two lashed out in the worst way possible.

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